Done using copic and brush pen!
Meet the bug knight! Inspired from medieval knight and rainbow beetle.
I'm practicing to work under a time pressure for this piece. The time limit was 1 hour for research and sketch. 1 hour to clean up and 2 hour to ink and copic. For those eagle eyed people, Im sure you guys can see I'm panicking halfway with my ink lines, being more wiggly and unclean. The design is also rather generic and lacking some design detail! I really need to rethink my workflow!
Also I just had another epiphany.. of course its filled with personal view on life. Please do not take offense if you read it since.. this is more like a notes for my future self if I am ever in a slump.. which happens pretty often :p
Now, let me start with three basic rules for me to remember when I am down.
1. Don't forget why you start it.
2. Don't limit yourself because we are our own limit.
3. Don't be sad because there is always better tomorrow if you choose to make it so.
Firstly, for me, art is a hideout, like those small pillow cave I used to build when I was small. When I am sad, angry and happy, its fun to draw, I could pour out my excess emotions there. I never been good in understanding complex human emotion and reaction but at least here I could carve a world that I could understand.
I sincerely hope I would continue drawing for the rest of my life even when I lost use of my eyes or limbs cause this outbreak of happiness and excitement that pour out from my heart every time I thought of an idea is just addictive :)
Secondly, many times over people told me that I have no talent or my talent is not here...(not that I believe in talent).. but even so, it does not change that I love to draw and I would like to do it for living. So even if there is scientific proof of talent or not, it should not affect my decision..
If one day I would like to change my career, I sincerely hope its not because I am depressed and give up on myself but it is because I find a new calling. One reason that I refuse the existence of talent is because it could easily become a convenient excuse to hang the towel and forget why are we doing something in the first place. I am weak, my mind is weak but hopefully by being selective I could forge it stronger.
Thirdly, Learn GROWTH mindset instead of FIXED mindset!
Anyway... time waits for no one. It will come no matter what. So just enjoy it instead of dreading it. :) But don't let life lives you instead you living your life. Excess baggage in life will create this problem..! Learn to live simpler. Love yourself cause that is one person that will forever be with you through up and down.. then grow old gracefully and have a happy holiday!